M'Paradise

Assalamualaykum, since i was a little girl till now, everytime i was asked with this question, i'll be dumb. more like thinking, deep thinking, it's like the hardest question ever. "Who's your best friend?" ugh. if you asked me , who i love the most .. that'd be easy. my mom dad siblings and my big family. but dont ever ask me who's my bff. i seriously cant answer that. not that i dont have any. i have.. but .. i dont know how to say it.. like it's complicated.. i was afraid that if .. (let's create a scene here to make it easier to understand the situation. ACTION!) Friend : Hey, who's ur best friend? Me : *shyly* you Friend : oh seriously ? *then that's the end of the conversation* Me : . . . . . . . . . . . . oh like i wasn't waiting for her to tell me the same thing ! but she didn't. that's what i was afraid of. humiliation + rejection it hurts.No kidding. Then, when i was 9 y/o , i was the middl

How can one love Allah when they dont even know him? they dont know who's their Creator, it is not enough to know our god by just knowing the shahadah, by just praying, by just reciting the Quran, when actually we dont know the meaning,the purpose of all this acts of worship. How can one love Rasulullah SAW when they dont even know him? they dont know who's their prophet, who brought Islam and peace to the world, who should forever be our idol, who had love us even before we were born. i wonder why, it's easy for teenagers nowdays to know every single detail about their "crush" ? by stalking FB,Twitter,Instagram, stalking here and there,try to be close with their crush's friend, just to be close to their crush. why ? but then,why is it so hard for human,for people to get to know Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW, do the same stalking.. just that using different medium, stalk Al-Quran, where we dont need internet or wifi connectio

Assalamualaykum. orite. as you can see up there. right above the title of this post. it's 26th of December, it has been. like forever since the last post hewhewhew -.- no time meh. asasi is so packed with............ everything. whenever there's a free time,i never even once remember about updating this poor page. but whenever i m too busy with everything, i'll be "I wanna update my blog ! " yes. that's me. @.@ kay back to the topic. me and my roommate. started of our sem2 with some new resolutions. which can be quite challenging and mentally exhausting. No more movies in weekdays. Sleep less. Eat less. Talk less. Laugh less. Spend less. (okay. i should change the title to 'To-Less-Do List' Ask lectures straight away when i dont understand anything. To study harder and smarter ! Stop procrastinate. ( which im doing now -.- , should be revising bio) To be more religious. To be more organized and tidy. To stop talking nonsense