Assalamualaykum,
since i was a little girl till now, everytime i was asked with this question,
i'll be dumb.
more like thinking,
deep thinking,
it's like the hardest question ever.
"Who's your best friend?"
ugh.
if you asked me , who i love the most .. that'd be easy. my mom dad siblings and my big family.
but dont ever ask me who's my bff.
i seriously cant answer that.
not that i dont have any.
i have.. but .. i dont know how to say it.. like it's complicated..
i was afraid that if ..
(let's create a scene here to make it easier to understand the situation. ACTION!)
Friend : Hey, who's ur best friend?
Me : *shyly* you
Friend : oh seriously ? *then that's the end of the conversation*
Me : . . . . . . . . . . . .
oh like i wasn't waiting for her to tell me the same thing !
but she didn't.
that's what i was afraid of.
humiliation + rejection
it hurts.No kidding.
Then, when i was 9 y/o , i was the middle person for two best buddies which i thought i was in their best-buddies-forever relationship too.
but no.
the next year,i transfered to another school. there.. finally,i met a girl who actually thinks that i am her bff too(yay,ive been accepted) .Unfortunately,she transfered ! -.- and it's not easy for a 10 y/o girl to stay in contact w her far away bff. so bye bye .
then again... for the last 2 years of my primary school life .. i became the middle person too.
from that moment onwards,not to say that i dont believe in Best Friend Forever but .... something like that.i tend to avoid any questions relating to "best" friend thingy.
Next, life in highschool.
i was in a group of 4. and like been declared by other kids as THE BFF.
cause anywhere we went ,we were always together. like a package. buy 1 free 3. yep. like that.
but of course.. there were ups and downs in "friendship" too hahaha. *Cough*
which went like too often . 2 of us argued like almost everyday.
and then.. 1 transfered to a boarding school. and ... there were me and this one girl.
back to the girl that transfered to boarding school. we often call each other. we had "Girl Talk","Crush talk","Family Talk" and more.
until..
both of us finished our High School. and she continued her studies in KL and i entered UNIMAS.
Day by day,it got harder for us to get in touch. both our schedules were so packed.
On the other hand.
here in Asasi.
Alhamdulillah. i learnt what the real friendship means. 'Best Friend' ? this doesnt even matter to me anymore.
.
i found real friends.
'REAL FRIENDs,they love you because of Allah more than they love themselves,they scold you when you do wrong,they'll never leave you astray from the Deen and they'll hold your hand tight just to be in Jannah together'
all i need is real friends.
p/s : and i realized,My siblings are my bff all along. i love you guys.
since i was a little girl till now, everytime i was asked with this question,
i'll be dumb.
more like thinking,
deep thinking,
it's like the hardest question ever.
"Who's your best friend?"
ugh.
if you asked me , who i love the most .. that'd be easy. my mom dad siblings and my big family.
but dont ever ask me who's my bff.
i seriously cant answer that.
not that i dont have any.
i have.. but .. i dont know how to say it.. like it's complicated..
i was afraid that if ..
(let's create a scene here to make it easier to understand the situation. ACTION!)
Friend : Hey, who's ur best friend?
Me : *shyly* you
Friend : oh seriously ? *then that's the end of the conversation*
Me : . . . . . . . . . . . .
oh like i wasn't waiting for her to tell me the same thing !
but she didn't.
that's what i was afraid of.
humiliation + rejection
it hurts.No kidding.
Then, when i was 9 y/o , i was the middle person for two best buddies which i thought i was in their best-buddies-forever relationship too.
but no.
the next year,i transfered to another school. there.. finally,i met a girl who actually thinks that i am her bff too(yay,ive been accepted) .Unfortunately,she transfered ! -.- and it's not easy for a 10 y/o girl to stay in contact w her far away bff. so bye bye .
then again... for the last 2 years of my primary school life .. i became the middle person too.
from that moment onwards,not to say that i dont believe in Best Friend Forever but .... something like that.i tend to avoid any questions relating to "best" friend thingy.
Next, life in highschool.
i was in a group of 4. and like been declared by other kids as THE BFF.
cause anywhere we went ,we were always together. like a package. buy 1 free 3. yep. like that.
but of course.. there were ups and downs in "friendship" too hahaha. *Cough*
which went like too often . 2 of us argued like almost everyday.
and then.. 1 transfered to a boarding school. and ... there were me and this one girl.
back to the girl that transfered to boarding school. we often call each other. we had "Girl Talk","Crush talk","Family Talk" and more.
until..
both of us finished our High School. and she continued her studies in KL and i entered UNIMAS.
Day by day,it got harder for us to get in touch. both our schedules were so packed.
On the other hand.
here in Asasi.
Alhamdulillah. i learnt what the real friendship means. 'Best Friend' ? this doesnt even matter to me anymore.
.
i found real friends.
'REAL FRIENDs,they love you because of Allah more than they love themselves,they scold you when you do wrong,they'll never leave you astray from the Deen and they'll hold your hand tight just to be in Jannah together'
all i need is real friends.
p/s : and i realized,My siblings are my bff all along. i love you guys.
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