M'Paradise

Ada masanya, aku rasa nak menangis sepuas-puasnya dengan harapan dapat menyelesaikan masalah ini. Aku tidak tahu sampai bila aku boleh bertahan dengan dunia. Belambak (baca : ramai). Belambak orang tanya, kenapa kau sahaja yang kena buat? Mana yang lain? Kalau aku tahu jawapannya, tidaklah aku menangis kan. Allah sahaja tahu sebab mereka dan aku harap biar apa sahaja alasan mereka, biar lebih bernilai masa dan tenaga yang dikorbankan kepada yang bukan di jalan dakwah itu. Ini bukan soal Su'uzon atau tidak dan bukan juga aku mahu menilai. Harap fahamlah maksud aku. Aku tidak dapat untuk sentiasa senyum, beri kata-kata positif, pakai topeng reaksi-reaksi yang indah itu. Percaya atau tidak, aku sudah cuba untuk buat sebegitu. Tetapi, aku tidak mampu. Sebaliknya, aku terasa lebih hipokrit. Ya lah kan, aku hanya manusia.😊 Semalam, seperti biasa aku dan sahabat-sahabat seperjuangan menghadiri Qiamullail bulanan. Qiamullail adalah antara program yang berjaya mengikat hati aku kepad...

Assalamualaykum wbt. Alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin. I here by would like to apologise, because I have been procrastinating to write ever since I entered second year degree. What made me write today you may ask? Somehow today, I felt emotionally touched with one particular Japanese Animation Movie that I watched with my friend Hamizah after Zuhr. She called it "Weekend Movie" or something like that. Plus, it was raining so the emotion became more overwhelming. So as I was stairing at the rain drops from the edge of the roof, I thought to myself, "Today might be a good day to write". Here I am now pressing on the keyboard. The Japanese Movie we watched was entitled, Maquia : When the promised Flower Blooms. It's basically a story about the pure love of a mother towards her son. Maquia is a girl from another place where her Clan lives longer than normal human lifespan. On the other hand, there's this King that was very self-centered and only cared for hi...

Ive got a lot of cuts and bruises lately,  Which most of the time, i ignore them thinking that it will heal fast.  But everytime they come to contact with any other things that create friction, the pain is no joke. My skin turns darker.  In our lives, we have been committing sins that apparent small  to us and hence we ignored them. Thinking as time pass by, the “small sins” would fade in ocean of our good deeds. As if. But little did we realize, everytime each sin meets another sin they dont fade away easily. They create a dark impact in our hearts. And that heart, is indescribably sick.

We never know what will happen. "Will i be okay?" "Am i doing the right thing?" The heavier the reponsibility, the more limited one knowledge has become — That is what i believe. I know i cannot grasp all at once, let it alone with my "cat-paws" and i know, time doesnt have mercy on people.  Shall i be greedy in the name of knowledge-seeking or shall i wait for the time to pass believing that by time, everything will be at its rightfull place? Looking back at old photos of the late chosen ones, I feel like wishing I was there with them. During the bright sunny days.  But then probably in that time, I wouldnt feel like I am a part of something big like how it is now. I am a part of something big, something that once was successful but now I have to start from scratch to get it back to where it was once or perhaps higher. No I am not confused. It is just not the right time for me to know. I am a bit scared but I...

Every time people misunderstood each other, Every time people argue with each other, Every single time people put the blame on each other, I felt nothing other than locking myself up in my own imaginary empty room. Where have all your memories of each other been ? oh i remember, they said people forgets easily. What happened to your friendship ? oh i know, they said, people don't stay, move on. It's okay, you can change it all every 5 years right? New life every 5 years? New friends and new memories every 5 years? Instead of strengthening the bond, they cut it off completely. Instead of making love, they have made grudge. Instead of spreading peace, they create war. Instead of helping one another, they drag each other down. Instead of having mercy and kindness, they are killing one another at heart! So why are you even talking about bringing the world together?  Why are you talking about making the world a better place? Are kidding m...

26/09/17 4:00pm - 9:30pm Gerai no 13 Hari ni sis kerja setelah lama rasa cam tak kerja. Lupa dah sikit2 resepi certain air 🤣 tp resepi White Lady tetap melekat di otak. Sampai en.Abu cakap "Nah mun White Lady specialty awak" setiap kali masuk order.. terus pas cup kat aku. Semalam, terbukti sistematik nya dan betapa kemasnya Bos aku,En.Zian. Dia minta aku kira duit pastu asingkan2 setiap Rm10 dalam tupperware. Aku pun buat lah, cam biasa.. mun is mun, buat dengan pantasnya tanpa berfikir -.- Pastu En.Zian kata, "Susun bagus2 ya Mun, kalau satu depan, semua depan" Baru aku faham! Ya Ampun. Sekarang aku kena susun balik dari first helaian seringgit2 tu dan aku susun muka Agung sebagai depannya. So semuaaaa duit tu akan ada muka agung jak kat depan. Faham? Hahaha patu En.Zian ni sangat lah pembersih orangnya. En.Helmi pon. Diorang akan lap dan lap dan lap setiap kali lepas buat air. Semalam masa kemas2 gerai nak tutup. Ada lah susu pekat masih berbaki dalam tupp...

19/9/17 10:15am- 10:30pm Gerai no.13 Excited sangat hari ni. Walaupun kerja sampai 12 jam lebih (tak ponteng kelas kayyy..tapi kelas batal,so apalagi, masuk kerja ah) Of course, letih dia hanya Allah ja tahu. Berdiri more than 11 hours. Kaki basah kuyup, sampai kecut dan pedih2 hahahaha. Tapi, Alhamdulillah sangat happy. T.T Entah lah sebab apa. Mungkin sebab kata2 dan Nasihat dari Owner kedai kot. En.Zian. Ya Allah. Dia sangatlah baik. Banyak perkara aku dan SaleeA belajar selain dari bancuh Air Of course. Just like bapa, En.Zian ckp, kalau boleh sentiasa selawat masa bancuh air. MasyaaAllah Pastu, kalaulah ada pelanggan yg bayar terkurang dan berlalu pergi, dia ckp, biarkan ja, jangan panggil balik. Sedekah kan na. Kita nak jaga air muka dia. T.T Mudahkan kerja orang juga pelanggan. InsyaaAllah Allah akan mudahkan kerja kita. Memandangkan kitorg (pekerja) dah diajar dengan pelbagai resepi. Nauzubillah mun zalik, akn lebih terdedah dgb fitnah. Jadi perlu lah jaga diri bai...